I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that God is not to blame for our suffering. And he is not the cause of your loss. James 1:13 tells us this. But we are also told in John 5:28&29 that the hour is coming when all those in the memorial tombs will hear Jesus' voice and return to life. Here in Earth! (Psalms 37:10&11) Jw.org. Please accept my sincere condolences.